What do you do when you're heart won't stop hurting? People tell you "you'll be okay, just give it time." Time is the enemy. Time is more waking up to the hurt, it's going to bed with the tears. If you've never experienced heartbreak then the empathy is lacking. But being in the middle of the storm, there is little space for the sun. Clinging to God. Clinging to H.O.P.E - Hold On, Pain Ends. Does it really? Does the pain really ever stop? Feeling the loss on a daily basis is torture. When does the relief come or at least when do the tears lessen? Take a piece of me and throw it out.
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Take your heart out, rip it into pieces, throw it in a blender, then pour it all over the concrete." Lauren Brooks says things well. The feelings are mutual and the pain is present in anothers eyes. I can physically see the pain I feel present in someone else and connect to their heartbreak like no one else can. But more than taking your own heart out, give it to someone else to hold, then watch them do that and feel it happening. Arms are there and tissues are given but its not their arms, and its not their presence. So if no one else can fill that void, I guess its just a part of the heart that will have to be covered up and healed over but never really filled.
No one else fills that space. The love can be overflowing and the support overwhelming from everyone else but it just doesn't reach that one place once filled by them. No one else compares and no one else can comfort.
They are the ones that are never suppose to leave. It's become a choice to walk out and that probably hurts the most. A missing piece is still a part of the puzzle. Can you live with a piece of your heart missing? Or is it really living? "You've been replaced." Try swallowing those words whole. It takes a part of you, a part that dies. Big Picture and real talk, when does the hurting stop?
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